aw… dontchaknow.

April 20, 2008 at 10:04 pm (Post It Note Glory)

It began raining today with a giant BOOM, thunder loud enough to wake me from my deep slumber. My deep slumber of anxiety filled dreams in never never land, that not even the overly obnoxious ear piercing fire alarms of the dormitories my freshmen year couldn’t penetrate. My deep slumber was jolted just in time to see the rain instantly poor a mere second following the opening of my sad eyes.

That was pretty much my day. A perfect Sunday of getting the homework I’ve needed to get done done and not advancing to the homework that is actually due in the next two days. A perfect Sunday in which I watched The Met Opera’s Romeo and Juliet, that included behind the scenes footage of scene changes and the stage manager calling in the second act, all of which accenting so nicely the steady stream of rain drops that poured outside of my porch. Perfect couch napping conditions.  

The predicaments aside, though they compose the majority of my thoughts and conversations these past few days months, I’m pretty humble. 

Master To Do List — The Priorities. 

-copy cds

- emergency contact info form

- availability form

-light design

-dead diva

-beef book

-pay the minimum on my credit card bill

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pin pointing mistakes

April 15, 2008 at 12:00 am (Mechanical Pencil Tragedy)

I HAVE to cut up my credit card. And soon. I’m currently 300 dollars in debt with no pay check in sight. I got a temp job offer today for ten dollars an hour, but I don’t think I will be able to take it because it will be when I am in tech for Reefer Madness. I haven’t worked on a musical in FOUR YEARS. FOUR. You know what that means? That means I’ve never actually stage managed a musical. You know what that means? That means I will not be having a part time job+school+Reefer Madness this summer and that = POOR. 

With debt and being verbally assaulted by the chair of my theatre department set aside, things are pretty alright. But… I’m in one serious apathetic rut right now. Thankfully, I’m back to being a general content, rather than a long term unhappy. I guess maybe that’s why I’m apathetic right now, because it’s been so long since I’ve been this close to happy. I took an impromptu trip to NYC last weekend. 

Sometimes I feel like the most ridiculous things and people are keeping me put together.  

I’d be a fcuking as$hole not to mention the obvious circumstance eventually.  A fcuking as$hole. 

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