Where to start.
I fake graduated! Woo! Now only 14 credits of summer school to finish and I’m donezo. I’ve been really busy lately! 4 days last week I feel asleep on my couch while doing homework and slept there all night, but I did wake up for class the next morning on time so I continued to sleep on the couch. Though that waking procedure failed me this week. Tech Week…
With tonight’s opening of Reefer Madness things will get a little lighter… and thank God. When I really think about it, I’ve only had a month off since Crown Point, and that was right after Crown Point. I need a vaca and stat. (I’ll post that exact statement at least 4 more times before I move to New York)
I also need to clean, do the dishes, read, pay my bills, laundry, and visit my sister.
Force Quit.
If I could time travel, I would go back in time to my winter portfolio review and say, “This is just easier for me when I want to do it, and I want to want to do it forever. It’s too damn hard to do it when I have to, it sucks the life out of the craft for me. I just want to do what I’m wanting to do, and that is wanting to stage manage.”
It’s the only constant in my life. It’s the common denominator for nearly everything involved in my life. It’s the most abusive and loving relationship I’ve ever had. It’s the only guarantee… and yet that guarantee relies on me. I feel like I’ve been letting people down lately as much as I’ve been let down and that is a shitty feeling. I can’t wait for school to be over so I can stage manage the shit out of this show.
